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One thing in which I feel very confident and strongly about is that I would have behaved no differently with or without whatever sign came from the court. At no time not seeking the final point was considered even a little bit and the behaviour of the guy was never anywhere close to encouraging abandoning that path.

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Despite that I did not choose this path, I don't feel easy about taking away an extremely scares resource like this court from so many others in need for it and may not even dream about getting its attention. That is at least one of the reasons for what I wrote about time here so that it feel easier to make this case stay in the background away from affecting the work of the court.    

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Let me expand that even further and say I accept to be included in the game any claim about the judges of the court and emphasize again that could be coming from part or all of the judges themselves or any other entity.

[(Added March 22, 2016) The  above part is about claims where, according to the claim, I am not required to make a choice the consequences of it may directly affect anyone other than the original adversary parties. That means one cannot, for example, make, as part of the game, a fake hostage situation demanding that I change my position] 

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On a second thought, instead of just claims related to stating that the judges of the court being equally divided, I am extending my acceptance for the game to include all claims about all levels of inclination. 

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It felt surprisingly unfair that despite all what I have shown earlier in my behaviour, it looked like it was understood to be much more of working on the likelihood of success and much less of simply revolting. And this came in a place where some may claim that the popularity of an actor prevented them from attempting to come out with their big allegations against him. What is next? Yao Ming fails a job test in China because he is not tall enough?

Aside from being counted on me as if they were direct communications, I also never expected that not taking as more than readiness to look at the case and making the court accessible, whatever signs judges in the court probably shown, to be counted on me as a bad thing. That is especially true for people holding positions involving thinking like there and their familiarity with how much thinking could pass through various stages before making a decision or reaching certainty. 

But even before all of that, it is hard to see how some may struggle with not generalizing on others here the actions of some they may not have ever known or probably even been in the same country before but it was supposed to be easy for me to count on people in the same system coming from the same profession despite all that which happened to me earlier.